All in One Night

It's a cold pitch-black night. I'm in my feelings. Thinking deep and wide. My thoughts are out loud. I want to scream! I want to be silent! I want to give it all up and I want to fix it. I begin to soliloquize; When I tear up, would there be a shoulder to lean on? Will you be there to wipe my tears? It's hard to speak. I can't let it out. I can't keep it in. Too many emotions running through my mind. It's hard to decide. Makes a lot of sense and it also doesn't make any. This moment it's this&that and the next it's nothing. What do I fear? Failure! It irks my soul. The fear of failure is what's tearing me apart. It's difficult to begin anything because I fear that I might fail. For a faint heart, it's gruelling to pick up the pieces and get my life together. If I tell you about it, will you understand me? Will you proffer a solution? The answer running through your mind must be No or Maybe. Exactly why I didn't say it to you. Oh shit, now you know and you probably don't give a damn. I wish I kept it to myself but I would be hurting-don't you think? It's out in the open and I have no regrets. I want no pity or help. I just want you to read this wholeheartedly. It's happening all in one night. I will make a move in one night. I will speak to the Almighty in one night. I will make a difference in one night. I might not succeed in one night but I will change something in one night.